9:30 AM
Thursday, March 31, 2005
i gues...
it is a fact tat i reali can't get into early childhood the course...
actually tis, i 12midnite already noe, so kinda haf to bear the bad news for veri long..
lucky i was able to tok to sum1..
n sms sum1..
kinda keep mi occupied til i was too tired..
den in the morning, went to work, able to tok to sum frenz b4 i start work, so nt bad la.
at least pple do care?
or do they?
tis i dunno, n ya i qns it..
but i can't deny i tink i feel their care n concern,
if nt i would nt be here typin..
beta off dead..den during work, i kinda told my coll. tat i will be quiting soon.
maybe it's bcoz i am too sad todae, todae work nt interesting at all..
except for the usual coversation i haf wif all those siao kia. hahaz =P
but still kinda she bu de, dun feel like leaving them.
not bcoz it's a great job k..
but jus, bcoz of sum pple..
maybe even cher,
afterall these daes when i work, able to see her everytime..
and ya, like it was last time, when i haven't move, still in bedok...
illusion ...
hahaz.
sumtimes when our schedule diff.
i haf to go to work myself...
i also feel weird w.0 her ard lor..
in a way, if i continue working there, i still able to see her, able to haf fun la..
coz ya, those siao kia reali is funni to be wif..
keep mi smiling no matter wad...
cher also wan mi to work til at least end of april..
maybe i'll afterall..
den after work, went to meet my gd frenz too...
[ah yee n cher if u see tis, i reali wanna thx u gers... u rox ]
thanks to her, cher n all my frenz who care bout mi...
who help mi get details bout private sch who cheer mi up..
so i kinda feelin beta?
or izzit jus pretendin?
dun wan pple to worrie bout mi?
tis i dunno..
i onli noe todae actually dun feel like eating... but dun wan pple to worry, so just eat..
end up eating 2 meals..
so damn fulL... *peng...
maybe tings nv gotta be the same..
yet, i treasure everyting i haf now..
coz i dun wanna sae tings like, if onli i had treasured it when it was mine i call my own..
aniway, those frenz who leave a tag.. thx, i saw them. thx for ur care n concern,
tat's wad kept mi going on too..
2:38 PM
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
izzit bcoz i am too lost in my own sadness...
tat explains my lonliness?i guess so...haiz... btw i like my cousin nick sia...here goes, it's ...love is nt bout lookin into each other, it is able to l0ok forward in the same direction...gd huh? lol..but i still tink mine beta?lol.. jokin la..my fav is...love is about loving the imperfect person perfectly...but honestly, who can?i dunno, maybe mine still not here yet...
or there is nv a him in my life...
tis let time prove?
hahaz.
i onli noe almost every1 seems too bz for mi..
ever since every1 gt a life...
tat's y i tink i need to figure out sum way...
haiz.. dunno la... let nature take its course is the best way...
2:10 PM
appeal results will be out tml...
NGEE ANN POLY [ early childhood ]will i be able to get in?from wad i noe, out of the 120++ pple who went to the written test tat dae, onli bout 20++ will get in..haiz, will i be in?gettin into these course... need i sae more bout my future?but at least gt future....even though it will mean tat my dream to be in the hotel line will be dashed...true, let fate decide... but still... it's so sad knowin tat it's over...maybe no1 will noe how it feels like to haf a dream and yet can't reach for it...if u do understand, den need i sae more?hahaz, it's like afterall i like kidsso it's ok ...in fact my childhood ambition was to be a kindergarden teacher.i still rmb tat when i was young, i used to ask my mum if being a kindergarden teacher is gd,she sae tat the pay is nt tat gd, and tat is nt veri gd for a job.but now, tings changed, it seems to be a job tat is worth going for....but still gifin up my dream to be in the hotel line.. is depressing...yet, if i can't get into this course...it means tat i will haf no future.......coz...i will have to either work while i retake my o level maths since i fail my maths, and den appeal for course with my combined cert next yr, which means i MUST pass my maths....or i go itc [ higher nitec ] while i retake my maths...while every1 [ or most ] are happie with their results...while every1 [ or most ] get into the course/poly/jc....while i am happie for them, i can't help but feel sad for myself.while i onli haf nobody but myself to blame for being so stupid n useless to fail tat damn maths...so wad if i gt 18 for L1R4, still no where to go...still so lost... still so ....sad......*sob*tml marks the start of mani tings...
haiz. shud i look forward to it?
speakin of tis, appeal results...
when shud i quit my job?
it's fun, at least the pple workin there are, pple like ervin, jiafa, anQi, angela, etc, and maybe even those customer, esp those seating in table 52, kinda my fav table...
hahaz. those funni pple..
always making mi luff...
tat's y i like to work in the so called service line...
tings are always so interestin....
hmmm to tink bout it...
being with the kids, is a type of service huh? lol *peng
it's a diff ting when u see pple smiling to u....
coz of sum little tings u do...
maybe seein those smiles, will make mi smile too...
tat's why i like to be in the service line...
maybe i jus need to make pple happie so tat i'll be happie?
den in fact i am nt helping them, but they helping mi..
hahaz..
1:40 PM
Sunday, March 27, 2005
if i were to die,
i guess the onli ting i can't bear to leave behind will be my precious frenz
afterall, they were the ones who had seen all patterns of mi,
the ugly mi, crybaby mi, low on morale mi, wadeva u name it, they seen it,
so how would i let them down by dyin?
no matter wad happens i try to tell myself to stay happie,
stay positive...
but how positive is positive? how happie is happie?
i jus try my best to be myself, is tat wrong?
being melody isn't easy too, u noe?
maybe sumdae sum1 will take mi away fr this lonely place,
maybe i wun be lonely animore, maybe i will haf all my frenz with mi
the wonderland...
wad's lonely?
it's when u haf mani pple ard u,
includin ur loved ones,
but still feel empty inside ...
deep in ur heart, u noe u are alone
y do i feel tat way?
maybe i haf a high need for pple?
hahaz, maybe ~
11:32 PM
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Why hold someone back... when u know u don't love them...Why keep them to yourself... when u know you won't wanna have them? Why let them miss other chances...when they can have them?If you really don't love someone....let them go...hurt them NOW... not later...for a longer relationship builds stronger emotions... YoU cAn'T mAkE sOmEoNe LoVe YoU, aLl YoU cAn Do Is Be SoMeOnE wHo CaN bE lOvEd, ThE rEsT iS uP tO tHe PeRsOn To ReAlIzE yOuR wOrTh~
Don't be too good I will miss you. Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too Sweet, I might fall for you.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...
If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much...
Just be glad that your paths crossed and; somehow he made you happy even for a while.
Bottom-line : Time will tell. If he's yours he will surely come back.
Don't throw your back to love when it's already in front of you.
Don't drive it away from you because if you do, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once residing next to you.
Bottom-line : Treasure the one who loves you! It's not easy to find a person who loves you. It's always more valuable to have a sincere heart.
The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take.
If you think something will make you. happy, GO FOR IT.
Remember that we pass this way only once.
Bottom-line : Time doesn't wait. If you think you might have found the right one, treasure the person, don't let that person get away.
Don't let fear hold You back. Give it a try else you might regret later...
No one other than ourselves know what can truly make us happy."
Two tear drops were floating down the river.
One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him.
Who are you?" ..."
I'm the teardrop of the man who regrets letting a girl go..."
Bottom-line : Nobody will sympathize with a person who constantly lets chances pass by without making any efforts to salvage them.
We normally don't realize how important our loved and close ones are until they leave us, and then we start regretting, which results in misery.
Lost time is NEVER gained again
The game's been set and heart's all dead. no more love and no more hate. All tt's left is frenship forever ...sumhow i wish i noe wad's love, but from my poor knowlegde, i do nt noei onli noe i can sae 'i love u' todae, but tml? the dae after tml?will i still love u?will u still love mi?will we still be together?i onli noe tat i am kinda tired of this so called game. this so called L-O-V-E
if ani1 happen to hear Luo Zhi Xiang Alex aka xiao zhu the song lian ai da ren i guessit's wad i am tryin to sae.if i sae i wanna settle down who will be wif mi?no1... life is about lonely, and overcoming it....the stars have gone, ever since u were gone?i hope nt, but ya, no staRs in the sky, i will be my own star, tat shines in my own sky.hahaz
4:18 PM
as u can @@, this site is nicely done, and it's nt my effort, but my gd frenz, su yee...
the ah yee do 1 la...
all thanks to her lor...
*clap*
now is 4.18pm la..
den is the time i 1st used this lor
hahaz
5:58 AM
Friday, March 25, 2005