appeal results will be out tml...

NGEE ANN POLY [ early childhood ]
will i be able to get in?
from wad i noe, out of the 120++ pple who went to the written test tat dae, onli bout 20++ will get in..
haiz, will i be in?
gettin into these course... need i sae more bout my future?
but at least gt future....
even though it will mean tat my dream to be in the hotel line will be dashed...
true, let fate decide... but still... it's so sad knowin tat it's over...

maybe no1 will noe how it feels like to haf a dream and yet can't reach for it...
if u do understand, den need i sae more?
hahaz, it's like afterall i like kids
so it's ok ...
in fact my childhood ambition was to be a kindergarden teacher.
i still rmb tat when i was young,
i used to ask my mum if being a kindergarden teacher is gd,
she sae tat the pay is nt tat gd, and tat is nt veri gd for a job.
but now, tings changed, it seems to be a job tat is worth going for....
but still gifin up my dream to be in the hotel line.. is depressing...

yet, if i can't get into this course...
it means tat i will haf no future.......
coz...
i will have to either work while i retake my o level maths since i fail my maths,
and den appeal for course with my combined cert next yr, which means i
MUST pass my maths....

or i go itc [ higher nitec ] while i retake my maths...

while every1 [ or most ] are happie with their results...
while every1 [ or most ] get into the course/poly/jc....
while i am happie for them, i can't help but feel sad for myself.
while i onli haf nobody but myself to blame for being so stupid n useless to fail tat damn maths...
so wad if i gt 18 for L1R4, still no where to go...
still so lost...
still so ....
sad......
*sob*

tml marks the start of mani tings...
haiz. shud i look forward to it?
speakin of tis, appeal results...
when shud i quit my job?
it's fun, at least the pple workin there are, pple like ervin, jiafa, anQi, angela, etc, and maybe even those customer, esp those seating in table 52, kinda my fav table...
hahaz. those funni pple..
always making mi luff...
tat's y i like to work in the so called service line...
tings are always so interestin....
hmmm to tink bout it...
being with the kids, is a type of service huh? lol *peng

it's a diff ting when u see pple smiling to u....
coz of sum little tings u do...
maybe seein those smiles, will make mi smile too...
tat's why i like to be in the service line...
maybe i jus need to make pple happie so tat i'll be happie?
den in fact i am nt helping them, but they helping mi..
hahaz..