12:22 PM
Sunday, April 24, 2005
hmm todae feel like typin a entry, so here am i?
i dunno wad i am wishin for?
i might be naive, but at least i am happy being mi...
i might be weird, but it might be jus special.
hope is so little, yet i still believe in tat little hope.
words meant onli so much, yet i believe in those words?
words... words were powderful....
shou fang hai... letting go... let time prove everyting..
i can't seems to forget those memories...
coz no1 makes mi feel blessed den to be wif u..
no1 understands mi the way u do..
it's been a year yet i can't seems to get u off my mind?
i am nt the same old ger a year ago, but 1 ting nv change..
the desire to make u change.. to make u believe in wad i believe in..
love is nt bout lookin at each other, but being able to loook forward in the same direction....
9:54 PM
Sunday, April 17, 2005
I have forgotten how long was it,
Since I last heard you,
Telling me your favorite story,
I have been thinking for a very long time,
Im beginning to feel paranoid,
Did I make any mistakes again?
You came and tell me with the tears in your eyes,
That fairytales are all lies,
Its impossible for me to be your prince charming,
Maybe you will not understand,
After the moment when you said you loved me,
The stars in my sky, are beginning to shine and shimmer.
Im willing to be, the angel you love,
In the fairytales, Open my arms wide,
And let it become wings, to protect you,
You have to believe, Believe that we will be like the fairytale,
With happiness and joy as the ending.
Everything is our beautiful ending
9:14 PM
Thursday, April 14, 2005
nv tot i will miss u? but ya i do, it's ur bdae todae, so happy bdae. u see i dun even noe ur name, but u noe mine, mine is melody..i guess i will nv see u again, nor hear u again..but at least i told u happie bdae..i hope u rmb mi the way i do..i will always rmb tat instant..life is nth, but living, life is ever so lonely.sum1 told mi tat pple will feel lonely, is onli when u need sum1 to be with u.yes maybe i do..now, i miss mani pple..tat bdae boy todae, **dy, j****.. so on and so forth..to be ard wif pple makes mi feel beta, n tat the world is worth living after all..hahaz, but wad is life? dun ask mi i dunno?
3:42 AM
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
ever tot of how a complete stranger can be sum1 u care bout most?
ever tot of how sum1 u care bout most may 1 dae be a complete stranger to u...
maybe even the stranger tat u noe best?
it's amazing and interesting how a complete stranger can 1 dae be sum1 u care bout?
yet, ironically it's scary how sum1 u care bout may turn into a complete stranger...
these again are parts and parcels of life...
how u see it determines wad type of person you are?
it's all in the mind, to tink bout it...
it kinda took mi a long time to figure out tis too..
if a complete stranger can be sum1 u care bout.
likewise it can also be the other way round.
sad huh? too bad, so sad? wad to do?
Move on and i realise tat meetin new pple on the way,
is the reason y u lose sum pple..
yet, it's sad. scary....
but amazing how humans are...
how humans can adapt to the changing envt...
if u ask how haf i been tis few daes,
i will still sae the same, lonely..
but kinda enjoyin lonely? or am i?
tis i can't be sure myself to?
so dun ask mi?
hahaz. aniway my com was spoilt for the past few daes lor.
so i didn't reali update..
so this entry will be quite long la. bear wif mi pple =P
sumtimes words can affect a person alot..
so much so tat i do not noe how to sae it..
n i guess u, the 1 readin these will understand..
to sae the truth, i used to tink tat blog is a veri stupid ting..
u see it's a online diary..
pple get to see wad u tink and all tat.
den y izzit called a diary?
til now i still dun get it la.. but the reason y i am usin it is coz my frenz design it for mi.
she was bored u see? but it was a nice job la.. once again, thx ah yee.
and since i gt so much time and i like typin i might as well make full use of it?
hahaz. no offence huh, blog.. heez.
it's a great idea aniway.
so pple like mi wif so much time and love typin, always gt ting to type will haf sumting to do wor.
summore still can practise my typin skills
hahaz. there i go again, my craps hahaz..
11:10 PM
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
why can't i seems to feel care animore?
why am i so stupid?
why can't i be like ani1 ?
why do i feel so sad?
why do i feel so lonely?
why do i feel so lost?
these daes, i dunno wad to look forward to...
maybe bcoz i no longer haf a life tat is LIFE.. 1 tat i call my own
how i wish i was nt living animore..
how i wish the next moment,
i will be in sumwhere new..
no1 seems to understand the situation i am in.
frenz? wad are frenz?
pardon mi for talkin til like tat?
but ya, i am tired of everyting, nt onli living.. but everyting in tis world tat ever existed.....
wishin every1 all the best in their life...
dun be like mi, so unlucky. so stupid and so useless... kinda beta off dead
if promises are made to be broken, dun make ani1, so u won't brk ani....
just leave mi alone if all u pple ever care is urself..
just let mi die....
i dun deserve ani1 to care bout mi, nor do i need..
so just leave mi alone will u?
stop askin mi.. those care and concern, sorrie i can't feel it..
i can feel it no more..
call it heartless, call it attitude..
but wad do u expect fr mi?
i am so tired....
no amount of slp nor rest is enuff for mi..
when life gets tough, the tough gets going,
tat's wad i am tryin my best to do...
but i guess, it still isn't enuff
to every1 else, tis isn't my best?
wad? the sky is the limit...
i am onli in a state of madness... maybe wif time i will be ok..
maybe ~
so let time heal my heart of lonliness, of sadness ~
if there is sum1 in tis world tat can make mi feel beta.... den where are u?
cum and find mi, u will realise ur job is so bz.. hahaz.
2:06 PM
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion
Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you?
You've always known
Your heart was on its own
So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to be lonely
Learn how to love
life that is lived alone
Learn to be lonely
life can be lived
life can be loved
Alone.
12:26 AM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
todae baiscally was jus like ani other dae...
abit mood swing. coz i kinda dun like pple to be late,
esp when i do make the effort to be puntuncal..
coz it seems stupid when pple are late,
while i was rushin to be puntuncal..
so i went off to my secret hidout place...
guess no1 will noe since it's so big over there.. [orchard, tml going also sia]
den sumting cop up, so ya, thanks ...
i was occupied wif tings to do...
actually been tinkin alot recently...
if i get into tat private sch, though the course is nt my dream course,
i will haf to study hard, since it's so EX ...
but most imptly is coz is a private sch, so ya ..need i sae more?
true, it's not hospitality, it's no longer bout service..
but i can't be selfish, and take a risk, a course is EX afterall..
maybe hospi isn't sumting i shud like, or even noe in the 1st place..
but now tat i noe and i like or can sae love, i can't deny it..
jus ya, put my hopes up on my gd frenz, those tat went into tat course..
see wad i mean?
i like it so much, but i can't be in, so u guys do mi proud k...