12:50 AM
Saturday, July 23, 2005
hmmm i dunno for u if u treasure those pple ard u..
but for mi i tend to treasure every1 i could .. as mani as possible..
after hearin cases of death in tv..
about indirect frenz death ... coz of these probs n tat..
i scared already lor..
plus the fact my work allow mi to appreciate pple more in sum sense.. esp those polite ones..
since it's pple biz..
u will nv noe wad happen next..
wad a word can do a person gd or bad...
last time i envy young couples alot..
but now i tend to envy old couples more..
it's like they might nt be holdin hands but u see the old man will keep a lookout for cars when the old woman is crossin..
young pple relationship tend nt to be lasting too..
coz they dun treasure..
or will tink brk den brk lor.. life goes on.. take tings too lightly n for granted..
everyting also wanna try?
todae saw a weddin in my work place..
so sweet...... kinda wonder when's mine? lol..
tink too much already i guess...
12:31 AM
hmmm my frenz asked mi y i nv blog for so loong...
sorrie wor.. kinda a bit busy.. as usual wif my work n studies
den by the time i am home.. sleep le..
bloggin... to mi it's just bout mi myself and i..
but for sum... it's like a open colume...
where the public can read.. i am nt saein i dun like the public to read bout my life.
if they do wanna read it's ok.. just tat my life isn't interesting
i just dun understand y pple treat their blog like a magazine..
like a chat room to be exact.. they write in issues. nt about their life..
for mi blog is bout my life.
tings tat i feel like just typin it out and let pple whoeva sees it..
coz i am comfortable wif wad i write..
sumtimes pple are just so weird.. so mani different types of pple exist..
i just wish i had a better life...
now i just study work...sleep shit .. eat..
to others i am a ger who is easily contented wif little tings.
a ger tat can be happy easily..
honestly, i believe it's beta to be contented wif little tings and stay happy...
there are mani types of happiness...
the true happiness tat makes mi happy from the bottom of my heart..
is hard to get... i rather be happy and luff it thru..
u will nv noe wad happens next..
like in my workplace and school.. so mani tings happen just in this month of july...
i also dunno is good or bad..
good or bad no point tinkin coz i can't change it already...
there are too mani tings in my mind rite now..
tryin my best to solve 1 by 1
u noe i used to be a quiet ger..
i am still quiet actually
coz when i tok i tok crap... craps tat i learn as time passes...
i like to be quiet and see tings happenin ard mi
and tink wad i can do to improve tings...
maybe tat's y i like to watch shows ...
tired of life..
it's like not living life. but let life lead how i live?
life so boring now....
maybe it's reali high time i change my life for the beta....
if there is 1 ting tat i reali want...
it's to feel tat my life is worth living..
sumting i nv figure out b4....
4:29 AM
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
read my frenz blog n i just realise tat it seems tat most of them haf stead le...
haiz. i wish them all the best. just dun ever forget tat i am the frenz tat will stay.
i will be there for them if u happen to need mi.
it's a 2 way ting. i need u n u need mi... rite?
i hope i am rite.
i see pple change the way pple see i change,
no matter how sad i am i promise i wun gif up in the frenship tat i once treasured..
tat's my life. i may sae i am tired of waiting n holdin onto tis frenzship.
but i can't imgine life w/0 their existence.
sum1 once told mi y do i still hold on...
it's nt worth it...
but now i noe where..
coz it's friendship. even maybe just a type of love.
it doesn't brk even if we do nt haf time for each other ani more.
i realise i still care.. but i no nt noe how to express it in a way to show tat i am nt angry wif them.
but just disappointed.
and tryin my best to adapt to their change...
or shud i sae to the sudden change in every1,
coz last time when i was bored i could just pick up the fone n find her.
now i noe every1 will be bz wif sum1 or sumting.
i no longer pick up the fone n call...
it's like a phobia. of too much disappointment
actually i haf a plan now... hope it will work..
6:48 AM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
everybodi is bz wif work and studies.
in fact mi too... i can't help it. coz i caN't stand it when i am free...
is like reali nth to do.. basically rottin lor..
still, i treasure my frenz lor.. maybe i depend on pple alot.
but i do noe there is a limit la..
recently fall down... kanna blue n black sia... so pain...
still all the best for every1... includin myself.
hope sumdae sum1 will share my life wif mi,
b4 i get tired of my life now.
it's like w/0 ani1. it seems weird.
honestly speakin i dun even haf much time for family
instead more time is spend in the company
though i dun mind. kanna fun.
but the fun might end.....
but, b4 tat happens i am tryin veri hard to make the best out of wad i haf now.