wad do i reali tink bout the pple ARD MI?
to sae the truth..
i dunno who to trust animore...
sumtimes it seems tat there is no1 ard mi to trust.
there is no1 tat cares for mi like before..

still i am tat cheerful melody..
i try to type in happie tings..
i was gifen tis blog to type happie tings..
su yee.. sorrie i nv.. i noe all my entries all sad de..
but i guess.. happie tings i can always sae them out in my life..
nt sad tings though, no1 expects mi to be sad i guess.. no point saein them out..
to others it's onli excuses..

i dunno if i shud be happie wif my life now.
i luff at the smallest ting..
coz nth makes mi 'happie' again..

i try to pretend life was life before and move on..
it's so different
i just cant bring myself to call them to go out animore..
i am sorrie. i fail to bring loti back to life..
i guess u pple noe what i am tokin bout..

i may appears nth matters animore. but in fact everyting matters. just i given up..
no more control over tings.
pple change... i cant help but see the sadness in my eyes..
in my behaviour..
disappointment.....

til the point.. i feel like dying..
but i cant.. it shows i am weak..
i am already weak.. i cant afford to be weaker.. and when i die.. i hope its a natural death...