9:15 AM
Friday, September 30, 2005
service... hmm i dunno but on bus to work in the morning todae..
i suddenly miss those frenz of mine last time workin together..
they might nt haf exactly make mi like workin, but now to tink bout it ..
i guess i understand. pple in this industry dun stay long.. nt mani at least..
make mi noe pple cum pple go.. as ez as ABC..
suddenly hope they cum and scold mi again..
nt like now. when workin seems kinda bored. when i hope i can cheer pple up..
at the same time pyco myself...
i wish they could ask mi where's my home..
lol
i just hope i did nt choose the wrong path.. to study n work.....
for now, i dunno la but i gt a feelin i hope 1 person doesn't quit b4 i do..
maybe i shud nt expect much.
everydae counts..
service.. we work in a team..
tat keeps the smiles going, who can be happie forever..
none. but the team spirit will cheer u up..
for now i guess tat is wad keeps mi going on.
as for my life? still as bored lor, hope to see my future soon la.
i feel like disappearin... haiz
will life be good/ will the person stay
time will show..
7:16 AM
Thursday, September 15, 2005
美丽的笨女人
当整个世界因为太疲倦而去
我仿佛听到有人为爱欢呼为爱哭泣
早已经听你说过千万次要放弃
从此不再为他而美丽不要鲜花不想再受委屈
Ok所以你背起行莨逃
逃逃到远方开始要试着独立
试着重新更爱自己
有一天清晨醒来发觉不能呼吸
于是又乖乖回到他怀里
这次你下决心牺牲自己
Ok
这一个美丽的美丽的笨女人
Oh ...她的故事发生在每个角落里
她让我相信了自己的爱情
不能和她一样软弱无力
不能迷迷糊糊勉强自己
爱不是死心踢地就有结局
哎呀呀呀 ...哎呀呀呀 ...
所以你背起行莨逃
逃逃到远方开始要试着独立
试着重新更爱自己
有一天清晨醒来发觉不能呼吸
于是又乖乖回到他怀里
这次你下决心牺牲自己
Ok这一个美丽的美丽的笨女人
Oh ...她的故事发生在每个角落里
她让我相信了自己的爱情
不能和她一样软弱无力不能迷迷糊糊 勉强自己
每一个美丽的美丽的笨女人
Oh ...都需要向天祈求感情出现奇迹
未来的日子需要多少的谎言
用来欺骗自己
麻醉自己需要多少同情多少勇气
这一个美丽的美丽的笨女人
Oh ...她的故事发生在每个角落里
她让我相信了自己的爱情不能和她一样软弱无力
不能迷迷糊糊勉强自己
爱不是死心踢地就有结局
笨女人
10:55 PM
Thursday, September 08, 2005
finally gt time to type out wad i reali wanna sae wif regards to kelvin winning...
maybe mani disagree mi supporting him.. maybe pple tink tat we shud support kelly..
all the tok bout pity and everyting, are u pple just tryin to cover up for the fact tat kelly lost?
i mean face it pple, kelvin win..
and y.. i guess we all noe y..
it's nt pity we are tokin bout..
it's how far hope can bring ya thru..
u see i am proud of being a singaporean now..
coz last time singaporean are potray in such a way tat we love freebies.. kaisu, kaisi all tat..
but now, we can proudly sae we haf a singer like kelvin who is daring enuff to cum up to project superstar and sing so nice tat it touches the hearts of mani others..
so much so tat he is a superstar now and producing a ablum in time to come.
and if u sae we pity him, are u also tryin to sae tat the veri 1st judge who 'pass' him pity him.
and we all noe his condition.. why did the judges let him in again n again.
while kelly was out of the competition n went back in again.
it is all due to supporters like u and mi.
there is no reason y u sae kelvin win coz of pity. when he was nv out of the competition.
and if so y was there no rules bout wad is expected of the competitor.
tat he cant be tis nor tat?
it's like kelvin touched mi wif his songs so mani a times.. i cant help but change my tinkin too.
i used to tink no matter how hard he sings, he wun win coz of his condition..
i support him morally though, but still fear tat the higher hopes he haf the more despair he will get if he lose. i tink he noes it too, but he just wanna try and hope to fulfill his dreams which he eventually did.
it's like if he cant win why did he manage to go so far and wif all the supports he's gettin fr us ...
i reali listen to his songs and felt reali touched.
he sings nt onli lyrics, but wad he feels deep inside his heart.
imagine pple like us fear darkness how bout him? he gt no choice but to overcome it.
he was brave enuff to come on stage and sing for us.
but when he did it., kelvin u nt onli sing, but u bring hope to us.
he can be a singer no less popular den ani others coz he gt a voice tat will touch every1 heart.
imagine he cant reali dance or wadsoeva like others male singers would, but he is still able to touch our hearts wif the songs. tis just goes to show tat he is gd.
and if gifen the chance to do the tings singers usually do he will make it big u see..
kelvin gif mi the hope to believe in hope.
in a society like singapore it shows tat we do haf a heart afterall..
btw i need to make myself clear tat i am nt saein that the others are bad.
i like most of them too..
is just different u noe.
u pple can learn all the skills required to win u noe.
the skills to sing the skills to dance and even if u did nt win,
u could go far.
see how the singapore idols are doin.. they are doin great u noe.
but for kelvin winnin tis shows he is reali great and open ur eyes and see wad lies in him.
coz sumtimes it is harder for pple to accept him. but now wif tis it is different.
just like the workin society. even if u haf the workin expericence u need a cert/diploma to certify ur abilty. the winnin of the superstar to him is a professonal cert for him tat he can sing well..
this project superstar is different fr others idols show ...
coz they reali create a superstar...
so super tat pple are touched by his songs,
so shiny a star tat pple haf to support him.
is showin u tat when there is a will there is a way.
if onli u see wad i am tinkin u will understand how i reali feel...
9:26 PM
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
the song tat most describes my feelins now..
pple change..
"Graduation (Friends Forever)"
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scaredLaughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on We remember
All the times we Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever We will still beFriends Forever
So if we get the big jobs And we make the big money
When we look back now Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
La, la, la, la:Yeah, yeah, yeahLa, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this townI keep,
I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
4:52 PM
if u ever care bout mi .. thanks..
pple change i noe. coz i am changin too..
but i cant believe pple can change so much..
true hospitality industry line tends to haf pple who walks all sorts of life..
but now, i can feel what tat reali means..
deep down i wish it is just an illusion..
tings haven't change.
but i noe it is changing..
time for mi to move on wif wadeva feelins i haf be it sadness or lonliness...
or even scared... i shud just go on..
coz i cant stop now animore..
i cant change the way tings are..
i cant make it beta nor can i turn back time..
i can onli try my veri best to adapt to the changes..
to wait for her to cum to her senses..
izzit so hard for pple to see tat humans are just onli humans,
instead of hurtin each other we shud just help each other out..
in the end it's still u n mi..
see myself in the mirror n i feel old.
see myself in others eyes i feel like i am younger i could be wad i am..
the stupid naive loti, tat doesnt noe bout life yet...
sum1 used to tell mi tis.... the difference in everydae makes every single dae worth living...
this is wad i kept in mind.. maybe tml will be a beta dae to look forward to.
my 17 bdae on the 17th of sept..
pple will be bz, they always do...
i shud just get used to this fuckin excuse and nt blame ani1.
coz blaming doesnt help .. i dun wanna be unreasonable.
u wan mi to understand i will. i do hope u will wake up n look ard u n the no. of pple who cares deep inside their heart..nt saein it out coz they dun wanna be a burden to ya.
enjoy ur life if u tink u are happie like this... i understand. afterall humans are born to noe how to enjoy life as it is. n to make the best out of our life when we are young...
pple no matter wad u do, do wad u like, nt wad others expect of u.
tis is wad i tell myself...
mani a times i qns myself am i rite by choosin to work n study at the same time in the name of hospitality..
do i reali love it.. n i guess the ans is still quite blur to mi.
but i must admit there were happie moments ..
in the near future i wanna be in a workplace where i dun wake up just to earn $ or pass time, but to enjoy my work like i enjoy hangin out going to chalets, shoppins etc.
tat is y i refuse to go for a 8-5 job.
i reali hope i make the rite choice. as much as how every1 objects to my decision...
may god bless u...
1:29 AM
1:09 PM
Sunday, September 04, 2005
i kinda feel i like to complain alot hor?
heez. now is time to tok sum gd tings already, i guess bad tings u pple had enuff of mi..
aniway i just am happie todae even though it is rainin now. coz i kinda sort out my tinkins..
while i was doing my project..
this porject is veri the interestin it is about your own travel plan..
i wanted to go to Disneyland in Hongkong.. it is openin in SEPT 12 wor..
heez, but i also noe i cant go.. plan til as if i reali going la.
den reali kinda tempted sia..
heez but is ex la.. so just enjoy planning just now. mine was a veri brief plan la..
hope my lecturer wun complain and ask mi to redo lor.
den i haf another proj tat i can do next time is on housekeepin .. abit chim..
but i tink still more fun den my life now..
yes i haf detailed plans about wad to do for weeks.. but will it go as plan
i noe the ans, as long as there is sum pple who is able to make my plans successful i am happie already.
the sudden desire to meet pple when my bdae is cumin coz i kinda miss alot of pple who i used to be wif so often i might even took them for granted last time. nevertheless, i cherish all those moments when they are always by my side. now tat this cant happen animore. memories shall stay wif mi =)
tings change pple change..
but i believe human nature dun change. we just hide it do we?
excuses like bz, peer pressure is just to gif us the chance to sae yes we are onli human we change too...
aniway i already gt the best bdae present ever..
wad more can i ask for?
take care pple, til we meet again =)