if u ever care bout mi .. thanks..

pple change i noe. coz i am changin too..
but i cant believe pple can change so much..
true hospitality industry line tends to haf pple who walks all sorts of life..
but now, i can feel what tat reali means..

deep down i wish it is just an illusion..
tings haven't change.
but i noe it is changing..
time for mi to move on wif wadeva feelins i haf be it sadness or lonliness...
or even scared... i shud just go on..
coz i cant stop now animore..
i cant change the way tings are..
i cant make it beta nor can i turn back time..
i can onli try my veri best to adapt to the changes..
to wait for her to cum to her senses..

izzit so hard for pple to see tat humans are just onli humans,
instead of hurtin each other we shud just help each other out..
in the end it's still u n mi..

see myself in the mirror n i feel old.
see myself in others eyes i feel like i am younger i could be wad i am..
the stupid naive loti, tat doesnt noe bout life yet...

sum1 used to tell mi tis.... the difference in everydae makes every single dae worth living...
this is wad i kept in mind.. maybe tml will be a beta dae to look forward to.

my 17 bdae on the 17th of sept..
pple will be bz, they always do...
i shud just get used to this fuckin excuse and nt blame ani1.
coz blaming doesnt help .. i dun wanna be unreasonable.
u wan mi to understand i will. i do hope u will wake up n look ard u n the no. of pple who cares deep inside their heart..nt saein it out coz they dun wanna be a burden to ya.
enjoy ur life if u tink u are happie like this... i understand. afterall humans are born to noe how to enjoy life as it is. n to make the best out of our life when we are young...

pple no matter wad u do, do wad u like, nt wad others expect of u.
tis is wad i tell myself...
mani a times i qns myself am i rite by choosin to work n study at the same time in the name of hospitality..
do i reali love it.. n i guess the ans is still quite blur to mi.
but i must admit there were happie moments ..
in the near future i wanna be in a workplace where i dun wake up just to earn $ or pass time, but to enjoy my work like i enjoy hangin out going to chalets, shoppins etc.
tat is y i refuse to go for a 8-5 job.
i reali hope i make the rite choice. as much as how every1 objects to my decision...

may god bless u...