wad a dae to start wif..
so called when to work on my 1st dae
and guess what when i gt there, i was told tat i shud be inform of a change of date to report for work.
shud cum on mon instead..
so i went home to slp lor.
haiz .. in a way gd la.. rest more before work reali starts. haiz.

and by the way sumtimes i cant see my tag board .. sorrie...
tat is how lousy my com is i guess.. sadly, i onli haf this com to use. unless i go his hse to use.
aniway he is in the army so hard la. i guess my frenz reali gettin lesser...

sumtimes i wonder... why onli when i gif up certain tings do they cum back to mi?
it is kinda too late. not tat i am cold blooded.. but i chose to move on in life?
wif my past.. sumtings i cant forget ? caN i?
i miss hangin out with my frenz u noe.. but i guess pple all bz. includin myself so to speak..

btw here is a nice song.. kinda veri long ago. but meaningful lyrics to share wif u all. shud have heard of it..
"Madonna Don't Cry For Me Argentina lyrics"
It won't be easy, you'll think it strange When I try to explain how I feel
That I still need your love after all that I've done
You won't believe me
All you will see is a girl you once knew
Although she's dressed up to the nines At sixes and sevens with you
I had to let it happen, I had to change
Couldn't stay all my life down at heel
Looking out of the window, staying out of the sun
So I chose freedom Running around, trying everything new
But nothing impressed me at all
I never expected it to
Don't cry for me Argentina
The truth is I never left you All through my wild days
My mad existence I kept my promise
Don't keep your distance And as for fortune,
and as for fame I never invited them in
Though it seemed to the world they were all I desired
They are illusions They are not the solutions they promised to be
The answer was here all the time I love you and hope you love me
Don't cry for me Argentina
Don't cry for me Argentina
The truth is I never left you All through my wild days
My mad existence I kept my promise
Don't keep your distance Have I said too much?
There's nothing more I can think of to say to you.
But all you have to do is look at me to know
That every word is true

i like this part.. I had to let it happen, I had to change ...
is so nice.. so so nice...
dun u agree? hee..

thanks alot. i gt the job...
hee =) went for interview todae at 9.30am.. got to wake up at 8 am jus to get ready and go. then went out..
towards recruit express. hee need to go there fill up the application form b4 going to the actual place for interview.
which i went to the wrong place. is AT CUPPAGE. but i went to cuppage plaza instead, haha so funni rite
heng ar manage to find it.
den went up and waited and waited.. til the interview starts..
relating my past experience. hopefully they will wan mi.

lucky.. hee receive a call need to be back at recruit express by 6pm when i am already home after interview. jus to sign the documents. but i was happie noein they wan mi. hee my 2nd interview onli wor. hee
i cant sae how much i am paid. tat is confidential. but i am workin at starhub pte ltd. and as an admin assistant. til the end of the yr.

den after tat went to shop shop for shoes n bags.
gt a shoe tat i reali like, hee it is from my fav shop. charles n keith la where else. lucky they gt 30% discount. hee den gt a bag from montip lor. haiz havent work need to spend le. mus be pretty pretty. hee
den after tis week maybe need to go shop for clothes also wor.
haiz. if nt wear same ting veri sian de. haiz.

dunno 6 months there i ok nt. can work nt , will happie not wor.
haiz. pls wish mi luck again. lookin forward for this new job.. at the same time excited. and scared..
wad will it be like. will i noe alot more frenz.. hee
and will my life be more colourful.. hee =)

may luck be by my side. hee thanks alot.

tomolo there will be a interview as in a job interview in the morning at 9.30am...
so pls wish mi luck. i reali hope i get a job..
hee.. =) so i guess i will report back wif gd news.. hee.
and den i will sae wad job it is ok?
hee wan to noe den pls let mi be shortlisted la.

aniway been happie..
coz dear came back from army to rest for 2 daes since he was sick..
though sick nt gd, but was glad he came back.. hee. reali miss him alot ma.
den i made sushi wif the help of my frenz. hee yummy...
den took a cab down to find him , as usual..
after tat his parents sent mi home after our dinner lor.
missin him now. he is sleepin coz tml he needs to go back report le.gotta miss him alot again..

haiz. and of coz i wonder how my frenz u pple had been.
i been slackin n slackin. hee so nv reali go out wif u guys.
but miss mi hor. pls. hee =)
is jus so boring la. free com maple find mi lor. i am there playin sumtimes. hee
coz this will make mi tink of dear la. he teach mi how to play de. also gt play wif him together..

hope i get my job wor. hee.

haiz.. money makes the world go round ..
sumtimes jus dun get it.. love money den y make babies?
no baby den got more $ wad.
beta rite? aniway i born or nt also nt impt ma.

no matter wad i also stupid ma.
so y bother to take care of mi?
dunno la.. disappointed in her? but it has been so long since she was nt the 1 i noe..
change le la... haiz.. she always sae i change le. but izzit?
haiz. dunno la. she like to sae wad do wad i also cant control.
onli she can control mi. nt listen to wad i have to sae.
even i open chalet also is wrong le.
haiz.... dunno la.. may god bless...

this post is jus for him, loo junwei...

i'm sorrie.. sorrie for wad happen jus now.. i reali dun mean it. i noe i shud nt have done wad i did.. i am reali sorrie.. thanks for nt ignoring mi, for answerin my fone.. for believin in mi again, for being nice to mi all along since we been together..

now tat u are going to army soon.. i will miss u alot.

i'll be waiting and i will try to solve our probs together... i will not sae tings tat hurt both of us again.. and this time i mean it.. this blog entry will prove tis...

u show mi wad love means to u and i will show u wad love means to mi.remember our promise ...090909... we will fulfill it together ok?

i love u and i always will... =) when there is a will there is a way? i reali hope we can overcome wad may come in b/o us for the future.. and be together... believe in love? hee =P

wif love.. sillyger

mickey and minnie...
be cute be happie... be cartoon.
dunno y jus like them, hope to go disneyland too wor.
cher ask mi put happie post... i am tryin wor.

and the happiest ting in my life i guess nt yet>
aniway i guess life had been gd to mi wif frenz n my dear ard.
everyting jus seems so nice for mi now....
remember how we used to slack at cher hse always make mi smile...
it was so fun la...
play like there is no tomolo...
hee.. also those daes w/o worries wor..
hee... then i guess sum memories last a lifetime..

a perfect slackin dae for mi.. hee went to check my friendster,
change my url address... hee
tis is it.. visit mi lor, add testimonial for mi la.
so boring lor.
http://www.friendster.com/lotiloveu
hee. and also went to edit fotos..
but i dunno how to upload my foto on the blog.. ah yee ah help..
mi blog idiot onli noe how to type ah. ah yee teach mi k
den i can show u all my works.haha.

den now jus bo lia going to print the foto out.hee
since friendster also cant upload there.
sianz. cannnot let i be proud of my works
haha.. actually jus bored la..
lol.. den now dunno type wad also.
shud haf gone wif cher to bedok library la.
aniway i saw on friendster a msg lor
from last time the sakura workin frenz, hidayah,
haha so nice to noe she miss mi. i miss everyting bout sakura.
i noe i shud nt tink too much, those are memories...
haiz. aniway ytd saw FMA on tv. so nice. feel like buyin ah..
rmb tat time go ah yee hse see half way... i tink less than half,haha..
ah yee if u see this can let mi noe u gt go buy FMA anime? i wan see..

they said sumting like are these real memories?
or are these so called memories implanted on the brain...
kinda make mi feel tat sumtimes i tend to tink tis way too
when i tink too much, miss sumting too much...
i wonder if the memories are real?
or am i jus imaginin it?
was it reali tat wonderful?
my growin up daes...
kindergarden,pri sch, sec sch til sakura..
i miss... alot....
haiz maybe humans tend to compare too much.hahaha.

if u all still rmb giftland..
a shop .. long b4 mini toons came,
at sembawang gt this shop la.
last time giftland was the BIG ting la, now more of mini toons le.
but sumting in giftland make it miss so much.
there, was the place i used to go often.
as a child, teenager, bdae presents usually is a headache, but
in giftland everyting will be solved, u will find sumting in there..
those gift findin memories in giftland will nv be replaced..

but memories and now is diff.
now giftland nt so mani shop le.
but is mini toons le. i am a member of the mini toons too.

aniway i bought sumting at giftland todae,
they used to have a big big cup on top wooden cover..
i used to love it. found it so buy lor. hee...
is a soup cup i tink. hee... =)

aniway life can change but memories dun change>
sumtimes i wonder if 1 dae i reali leave the world.
how mani will rmb mi, loti, melody, xian wen?
or will my name vanish like me.
like i nv exist b4?
everyting i do in my life is to bring myself value life more.

sumtimes i tend to be abit over sensitive... sumtimes i tend to tink and worrie too much.
i jus hope life goes well for mi, tat's y.
but the ting tat i hate most is i tend to miss sumtings more often than others, like how i miss bein small and cute. lovable by pple ard, playin in sch where sch is fun fun fun and fun.
now as u grow, sch is another tings.
humans need to grow. but i tend to miss those gd old times.
kindergarden, pri sch. sec sch.
the path every1 take to becum an adult.
and wad can we as adults do?
is everyting within my limit? or are they beyond my limit? how much mus i do to achieve my goal?
a simple yet extraordinary life....
i used to love dancin as a child.
kindergarden dance mani diff type. pri sch learn chinese dancin.
but as i grow older.
no longer dance..maybe no time to learn?studies?
sec sch in guiding. want to continue.. but no time again? studies n workin..
now .. like the service industry .. but am i ready for it or nt?
i am tinkin since the dae i quit fr yellow til now.
since i gt my diploma...
in every stage of my life, i learn.
but as i grow older. am i afraid of learnin? or still the same curious ger?
haha... i duno ..
haiz. maybe i will tink bout it....