haiz.. been so long since i last tok to him... in army camp wor..field camp summore.
on friday i went to arcade with my cousin, den saw my frenz, was asked to go to jbox. den we went there. seat and slack at the main hall.. but my cousin nt used to it. go back 1st...
go back there realli make mi tink alot. but i enjoyed myself. at nite, dad fetched mi home...

sumtimes i wonder if i will miss him?? pple get used to tings veri fast. will i get used to not being with him? i dunno. dun wish to tink of tat dae. but i admit i dreamt of sum1.. tat nite... and i had a shock.. i used to dream of dear more.. haiz. aniway i reali miss him. but i cant depend on him now.. army.. he wun haf time nor attention for mi..
if we reali love each other, hopefully the 2 yrs will be smooth.
meanwhile, i jus have to keep my focus on others.
to love sum1 is so hard.. xiang ni zhen de hen xin ku... but i wun gif u up...

saturday met up with ting ting and cher.
we jus went shoppin n ate at UMA UMA gt their VIP card also. hee
den saw xuelin there. she n him also sweet =)
den at nite went back to Jbox again. haha 2 daes go there wor.
but fun la summore we ate breadtalk there. nicey.
ater tat i went home 1st, scared no bus.
jus like tat 2 daes, n i spent so much le. wonder will i hit my target savings?

but without dear, daes seems to crawl. haiz. but no choice also la.
he needs to be there... i jus have to bear wif it.
keep myself distracted.. so i wun miss him so much, so xin ku.
days without dear.. i miss u ..

todae went to play maple lor. haha always play with him de. play alone todae..
i'm so lonely. reminds mi of the song learnt to be lonely. when we were onli frenxz, dear told mi about this song.. hee.. coz i always feel lonely de..
maybe he has always there wif mi.. even now.
and hope his field camp wun be too xiong. kinda worried.
mi gif u moral support. hee
lonely.. learnt to be lonely... spendin time with myself...

and even now, i am home alone. so lonely..
and missin dear so much.
sumtimes i wonder, wad's love?
every1 noes the meaning of making love...
but wad is love all about?
care, concern? haiz but all i noe is i am learning how to love dear more.
he asked mi to trust him more. trust tat the r/s will work out afterall..