durians.. singaporeans fav.. my fav.
chilli also my fav...
durian, hard on the outside, soft in the inside.
chilli.. hot ...

most workin adults seems to be like ... chilli and durian. including mi
i am onli 18.. but now workin, studies i dunno if i can contine or not?
irony, now cannot study wanna study.. can study dun wan to study, haha.
aniway, ya pple like to protect themself. i like too.
so much so tat sumtimes we hurt pple we care too..
but if u noe the way ard openin the shell, like the way u care bout sum1..
u will find sumting soft.. sum1 who isnt wad she looks like.
if u get mi.. but there will be times.
the flesh of the durian is rotten, not nice, nt fresh enuff..
jus like the way humans weren't perfect...
chilli.. hot hot hot.. but if u reali love chilli. like i do.
u will find it enjoyin to eat, even to the extent, without chilli u cant...

cutie stuff... every1 likes .. but behind the cute face, wad lies beyond?
sadness? hiding? pretending? haiz..
ugly stuff... every1 hates.. but behind tat face? wad lies beneath?
sumting sweet...with lots of hope... tat it will be accepted sumdae..

is being abandoned sad?
or losing sum1 sad?
there is no measurement for it?
but jus my guess...
when u didnt intentionally lose sum1 or sumting... but fact is , it is lost... u feel sad.
but honestly how sad can u be? the feelin of lost..is sad helpless..
but wad bout being abandoned?
no1 cares, no1 even noe u are gone..
gone with the wind..... and sadly life goes on, even without u.
but it will be different.. noein u lose sumtings in ur life.
i lost alot of tings in my life. and whenever tat happens.
i am a changed person. like i am dead and reborn...

but if i am abandoned.... the grief / sorrow/ lonliness is with mi forever... doesnt change no matter wad. .
if sumdae i reali die.. i am selfish.. i rather die alone. where no1 noes..
coz i dun wish to lose so mani pple. i rather believe i am going .. jus going sumwhere without them.
if i never wake up again, will tat gif mi relief? or more pain? noein i am alone forever?
but i noe life is tiring.. coz it jus seems to go ard and ard 1 word. $.money
nth interesting... or maybe jus the way i am born?