pple sae, being together, as long as ur hearts is together tat is enuff...
but to mi, when i love sum1, i wanna be with him as much as possible, is it reali tat hard? i believe tat pple in love, shud treasure their time together not wasting anytime they haf, u nv noe wad will happen tomorrow...
and to share the loved moments together, to share happiness joy and sadness, sorrow.. is like to tell him my everydae life... but now, it seems guys dun reali do tat huh..
or shud i sae no1 can? everyone haf a life..
i keep tellin and typing, but even for a 100th time, i still will fail to understand the meaning of bein independent... why?
bcoz, love makes mi weaker... haiz... is like even for frenz also same...
no frenz can be like last time, going out together after sch every dae... haha, things change ever since o level but no matter how long, i still cannot accept... i am so tired ./.. i dun understand wad i am going thru.. haiz..
i feel so lonely..
so lonely.. so damn fuckin lonely.. pls pardon mi for my use of words, i am tryin to control, but it is hard to hide my feelis animore...
if cryin can make mi feel beta, i wun stop cryin..
now is he cant be there for mi, next time when he can? would u be there for mi?
i miss him.. i miss my frenz.. if i were to lie on the hospital bed, will ani1 be there for mi? or i will still be lonely lying there? til my death..
i admit i hate to be alone.. but sumtimes i make myself spend time with myself.. in a way to noe myself more, in a way, i lazy to call pple le..
haiz, i dunno y am i so depressed, and the onli way i can sae it all out is thru blogger...
dear blogger, pls give mi the hope of life... jus like wad my frenz sae, when the going gets tough, the tough gets going...
i haf to make it , i reali have to..
they sae, sadness exist to make us humans cherish happiness more. maybe it is true. coz i am reali cherishing my happiness more.. esp when the time i haf with him or my frenz seems to be getting lesser and lesser as i get older...
this is my life.. smiling to greet the world. but deep down? is fucking hurtin to my heart.. cry also cannot cry le. eyes give up tearing.. heart still crying.. lips decided to smile it all thru...
y is it being together with ani1 seems so hard... maybe i am silly, i feel tat i shud haf as much time as possible with the pple i love.. for fear tat i am not gd enuff? or for fear tat i will give up? i dunno...
blogger ah blogger, sorrie nv update u for so long.. haiz u noe my tv spoilt not...
haiz, sianz lor, now nth to do.. haiz..
aniway happy coz tml thur and fri can be with laogong le.. he off..
also i gettin my pay soon i tink, going to be 1 month since i started work le..
nowadaes beri sianz la. besides work jus work lor
but time do pass veri fast, everydae face the com, ans the phone, do filing lor.
all work is like tat de, so no choice de.. haha
happiness of life is to be contented with life itself... yet it is the hardest ting to do.... although it seems simple, it is actually hard lor. haiz...
i miss workin in sakura.. until now.. hai... blogger i noe u are tired of listenin to mi tokin bout sakura. but it is always on my mind. haiz.. the happiness of workin , where work does not seems to be a routine.. haiz...
bt i noe i cannot look back, i mus look forward... the place i am workin is sinair, not sakura animore.. although all start with s....
haiz... sianz...
i haf a new job in sinair travel agency.. hee =) so happy though i jus started work, but is reali interesting and stressful at the same time coz i scared i cant learn in time.. haiz.... aniway i mus jiayou... hee
so my life now is usually at nite after 6 de, coz i gt work ma.. haiz
then later today maybe will go see the gui ah gui ah.. wonder how they make this a local comedy.. i always try to support local talents, since i myself is a local. i understand tat here to get recognisation is hard, so i will do my teeny winny bit by supportin them... and usually comedy, singaporeans can joke well... haha