pple sae, being together, as long as ur hearts is together tat is enuff...
but to mi, when i love sum1, i wanna be with him as much as possible, is it reali tat hard? i believe tat pple in love, shud treasure their time together not wasting anytime they haf, u nv noe wad will happen tomorrow...
and to share the loved moments together, to share happiness joy and sadness, sorrow.. is like to tell him my everydae life... but now, it seems guys dun reali do tat huh..
or shud i sae no1 can? everyone haf a life..
i keep tellin and typing, but even for a 100th time, i still will fail to understand the meaning of bein independent... why?

bcoz, love makes mi weaker... haiz... is like even for frenz also same...
no frenz can be like last time, going out together after sch every dae... haha, things change ever since o level but no matter how long, i still cannot accept... i am so tired ./.. i dun understand wad i am going thru.. haiz..

i feel so lonely..
so lonely.. so damn fuckin lonely.. pls pardon mi for my use of words, i am tryin to control, but it is hard to hide my feelis animore...
if cryin can make mi feel beta, i wun stop cryin..

now is he cant be there for mi, next time when he can? would u be there for mi?

i miss him.. i miss my frenz.. if i were to lie on the hospital bed, will ani1 be there for mi? or i will still be lonely lying there? til my death..
i admit i hate to be alone.. but sumtimes i make myself spend time with myself.. in a way to noe myself more, in a way, i lazy to call pple le..
haiz, i dunno y am i so depressed, and the onli way i can sae it all out is thru blogger...

dear blogger, pls give mi the hope of life... jus like wad my frenz sae, when the going gets tough, the tough gets going...
i haf to make it , i reali have to..

they sae, sadness exist to make us humans cherish happiness more. maybe it is true. coz i am reali cherishing my happiness more.. esp when the time i haf with him or my frenz seems to be getting lesser and lesser as i get older...
this is my life.. smiling to greet the world. but deep down? is fucking hurtin to my heart.. cry also cannot cry le. eyes give up tearing.. heart still crying.. lips decided to smile it all thru...

y is it being together with ani1 seems so hard... maybe i am silly, i feel tat i shud haf as much time as possible with the pple i love.. for fear tat i am not gd enuff? or for fear tat i will give up? i dunno...