hmmm xmas is coming new year is coming.... been busy meetin / catchin up with my frenz meetin him and yes it was fun. and once again i question how mani frenz i reali reali haf... and i guess i noe it all along. it isnt the amount tat i care about... is the feelin sumhow doesnt seems to be the same. maybe we grow older...so nt tat sticky animore... or am i still the onli sticky oneS?
aniway tat is my prob i jus haf to face it... sumhow or rather maybe is jus i havent grow up... tinkin of the past also no use wad...

sum pple i care about so much... yet i noe they dun care about mi the way i do... but i cant help but care... i care about so mani tings... haiz... and this 2 frenz of mine, i jus hope they can get together again but i cant do anithing to help them. i jus feel so useless... they are the ones always helping mi. yet now i cant do anithing except to hope a miracle will come... friendship... haiz. sumtimes i dunno wad to trust... who careS about this stupid ger?

i noe they sae wad treasure wad u haf instead of hoping wad u dun haf... but question is wad do i reali haf? i dunno animore already. i haf myself to blame. maybe i am not a gd frenz... tat is y. i am not a gd person i sucks. haiz...

hw to be a better person. maybe i should jus smile smile smile... my way of life. smile thru out and no body noes wad i reali feel inside becoz tat is not impt. wad impt is tat i am smiling ................