12:00 AM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
last time when we were young we always sae frenz 4ever... but as we grow older... we do nt sae it as often.. and now certain things happen. i jus wanna sae i mean it when i sae frenz 4ever....
i dun need to name who, u shud noe who u are. my frenz 4ever. and the reason y i did nt make a stand doesnt mean i dun care. but i care.
is nv easily being frenz, gd frenz, close frenz, best frenz, even harder. i understand we all change. bt thruout the times we grow, i understand we grow to be beri diff pple...
dun sae others, sae mi for example....
i noe i spend more time with my bf ... but tat doesnt mean i dun care about my frenz. just tat i allocate my weekend time with him. since we are both working.
and i am more emo. crying power i admit... 1 of the most uncontrollable....
but yet, u pple can accept mi for wad i am. thx. den y nt accept other pple?
hurtin words, who nv hear b4?
i noe is hard, is so hard for mi to forgive her once, or shud i sae nt the word forgive, but to understand where she is coming from to sae out those words.
sumtimes, when hurting words are said, nt onli the person hearing it feel hurt, but also the person saein it. to actually noe hw it feel like, saein kinda confirms it...
if i nv make a stand, will i be hated by my both frenz.....
i dun wan to compare, but in the 1st place, i tot they will understand y i nv make a stand....
becoz, we are all frenz, no matter hw bad or gd we are, we dun compare each other.
maybe sumdae we will have a gd talk.
frenz 4ever.....
3:07 AM
Friday, July 18, 2008
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
u noe no matter hw hard i work i also noe pple see appearance de
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
my double work = pretty ger 1 work
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
i jus gt to live with it. afterall i haf so mani pretty frenz (like u)
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
no choice. insecure yes i am,
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
i admit.
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
veri hard to understand, + on top of everything i am a vegetarian
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
...
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
is like until now also. work even worse.
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
dunno is coz i am the onli teenager vegetarian here
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
ya lo. u mean u nv eat meat b4
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
u mean u vegetarian yet so fat
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
u mean u cannot eat this blah blah food, or restaurant
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
yes all this are wad pple ask mi
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
and i haf to deal with during work
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
they cant eat this restaurant coz of mi.
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
i noe, i appreciate... but i noe they dun like mi
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
maybe i am sensitive. maybe no1 wanna lunch with mi.
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
maybe i dun derserve ani frenz. jus coz i am a vegetarian. ting too mani issue hard to explain
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
how being a vegetarian is cruel to mi ...
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
hw i derserve it.
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
but who cares? at least nt those who ask mi those qns. they are too honest. til it hurts
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
i still smile. kanna train in F & B
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
to be honest, u dunno hw it feels like....
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
coz u are nt...
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
nt a vegetarian
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
and yes it affects mi, i jus smile ... my smile... hides alot of mi. i am glad i haf this gift
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
or shud i? the world is so cruel
tHe Ra!n DesCribE m! [ 原來妳不知道我有多愛妳 ] says:
even my hair pple also complain
is like it hurts. i smile coz i noe is honesty. i smile to make pple feel beta. my smile is alot...
yes i am a vegetarian my eating habits. i love love being a vegetarian. i eat food too, tomyam, chilli i love chilli padi etc etc.
yes i am fat i love fried food.
yes i haf less hair. i am too stress. my life.. i dunno y...
haiz, next time u see my smile... be surprised...
8:33 AM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
i cant slp. decide to blog.. but dunno wad to blog...
hmm but i realise tat the bloggers tat i read they post about the same things. both being paid to do it i guess.. being paid to blog. tat sounds fun. but becomes nt wad u wanna blog. not about mi le. but will ani1 be so interested in my blog. i dun tink so. jus where i go on with my rubbish tok lo. sumwhere to vent my angers, my pain my emotions. since i am so emotion. and yes i miss him. haiz. i noe i shud be more independent. but is hard. things happening, i wished he was here. another side of mi tell mi to strong. with or w.o him. i nv noe wad will happen in the future. nt tat i dun trust him, jus tat things have kinda gone a diff path now. maybe he doesnt reali realise. but i do. haiz.
sum1 tell mi sumthing veri nice.
2 pple together for long is not ai qing, is gan qing.
no i dun wanna sae tat. no love but onli feelins. haiz. i dunno how will u react.
but for mi, no i dun wan. i wan ai qing.
if u ask mi y, allow mi to explain ( this is going to be a long post, u can stop readin... if u dun wanna read. thx for readin until here aniway. )
hmmm for items like for example my fav minnie mouse. hug long le, yes will haf gan qing, tat is not ai qing ok.
den ai qing.... ( sorrie abit too sweet) is to my dear laogong la. so he can dun eat sweet le.. haha aniway tat is ai qing + gan qing la. if nt cannot maintain. but i reali cannot imagine if wad is left is onli mere gan qing... haiz
the following is for u laogong:
i jus wanna sae i love u. i noe u noe. jus wanna tell u i reali do. alot of times i reali hope u can be with mi. but we are both bz. or shud i sae u more bz. i understand. i noe u are still here for mi. =) we jiayou together til the dae our dream come true.
the following is for my frenz
pls meet up often. i am so bored. lol and take care of urself til we meet again. i hope the next time i will be slimer and prettier and everything nice. haha but 1 thing tink cannot change as emotional as ever. lol. and ah yee, i noe u read this. but dunno u will read til here nt sia, coz in front too emo le. haha pls hor, try to nt work so much so we can meet more la!!!
8:42 PM
Saturday, July 12, 2008
this mth i am broke. so broke but i still haf things to buy b4 the GSS no more.
as learn fr cher. i am so KS... haiz sorrie but i love shopping la.
as most of u already noe, i bought my dream phone... the LG viewty. haha
yeah, finally a touch-screen phone. hee =)
den i change my plan to the 1 tat gt 3 free calls to m1 friends. hee
i also pay my hp bill from now on. so haiz, i am already so broke. sianz rite. no choice lo. den i still need to shop for some clothes, shoes. haiz nv endin list.
going to watch red cliff too ... hee =)
den is work again tml. sianz.
9:32 PM
Saturday, July 05, 2008
hmmm as u all noe, i am workin at park mall. is like everydae work work work, no life de lo. so sianz lo. haiz, but den like tat den gt $.
haha, aniway ytd veri lucky lo, was with dear going to ps to watch movie. den saw ya li and another frenz also. they wanna watch movie. haha i abit bad, they wanna watch 10 promises to my dog, i ask them go see hancock. haha but veri nice show u noe. another mus watch is next week come out de, red cliff =)
den we buy the slot at 7.30, so it was onli 5. we each go to places for dinner. den we wanted to go to the cathy restaurant to eat. coz gt vegetarian ma, but no fate they havent open. end up go ri ben chun eat lo. but also nice la, jus tat dunno y the udon like over cook or wad i dunno la, become too salty lo. aniway i feedback la, told them le. haha they sae thx =)
den after tat went to eat ben and jerry. i love cathy. good food, good movie. even gt my ben and jerry. ok nt mine, we ate our fav chocolate fudge brownie =)
den slack there, gt pple playin guitar, den also realise they always haf performance de.cool concept. ben and jerry is gd, haha =)
den went to catch the movie. damn fanny. go watch my frenz, i am not paid to promote this, jus tink this movie is beri nice. i love the emotional part of hancock. like deep down how he feel. besides this, the flyin also shiok haha. as humans, we all wanna fly.hmmm shudnt sae more. jus go watch ok ... lol
den after the movie. we went to walk to suntec city. haha there was this siao motocycle just drive past a person like a few mm away. tink tat person gd mood nv scold back lo. haha aniway we went to esplanade had a gd slacking time and chatting of coz. realise construction is on for countdw, which reminds mi is going to be yr end soon, hmmmm....
den gt pple playin guitar again. i love it, enjoy the mood u noe. free entertainment. haha, den we manage to catch the last train home. lucky lucky us.
todae gt cosfest, haiz wanted to go de. but den nv ... maybe going to ah ma hse later. i am not sure actually abit lazy. coz veri far, hope dad will fetch mi there later. if not i guess i will slack at home.
but i wanna change phone, change plan. as for wad phone i wanna change to.... i shall keep it a secret. meet mi and u will noe lo. if i happen to change my phone la. haha i am asking u to meet mi nt ask mi hor. lol
den ah yee tink u will read this la, pls take care of urself hor.
and enjoy ur cosfest wor. haha.. sorrie i cant go with u ....
hmmm wad a long long entry. haha shall stop here. tata