is it true tat there will be rainbow after the storm?

sumtimes we tend to overlook the little things in life, i do tat too
but recently i realise tat is this little things in life tat change us.
like, when i was real down, who was with mi and wad happen...

1 of the incident, i was all alone at orchard, suddenly it start to rain heavier and heavier, there was this kind tall stranger tat came pass and shelter mi from the rain. jus when i was tinkin, hw down could i be? drenched?

it gave mi hope. kept mi thinking....

and i reali appreciate the pple who was ard with mi when i was down and out.

dun scold mi for my choice now, for i am just loti, nt rock.
dun be angry with mi, for i wan ur support,
dun sae i am silly, for i jus wanna be happy,

wadeva happens, is fated.............

dear God

please gif mi the strength to do the things i can,
the courage to accept the things i cant,
and the wisdom to noe the difference...

as mentioned by a frenz long ago, when the going gets tough, the tough gets going...
now, tat is wad i am tryin,
what doesnt kill u onli make u stronger? or is it slowly killing mi, jus like cancer?

i dare not hope, hope comes disappointment, i only thank God for keeping mi alive til now.

in time to come i hope,

may tears become smiles,
may fear be only in dreams,
may weakness become my strength,
may sadness make mi grow up

dear diary,

i have so much to sae tat i dunno where to start?

everything still does not feel real to me,

a dream tat will nv come true, 090909...

a life tat will nv be the same animore.

i dare nt hope, for hope brings disappointment.

yet i still dream, but wad is there to dream when my worst nightmare has already happened?

maybe time is the best medicine,

i wish to be happy again...

a no $ spent dae, yet i enjoy myelf. we watch a lot of DBSK show ....
in case u guys dunno like i dunno, picture above, guess my fav...


haha of coz is the centre 1... hee =)

handsome lo, and a veri honest guy and jus handsome, caught my eye =)
but the show was entertaining...



on 2 JAN after work went to ah yee hse to ton. and i reali mean ton. coz i onli fall aslp in the early morning of 6 plus i tink. at 1st i tot i was the onli 1 tat will slp 1st de. was tired tat dae, we under staff den lunch in, and unfortunately i also have some errors ... haiz

aniway jus real tired, but hang on, kept my eyes open, for lx wanted to ton, meaning no slping... i jus had a bad dae so tired lo. but i tried my best le. even though i was nt the 1st 1 tat slp la, 1st was ah yee, tink she more tired wake up more early than mi, but lx i noe no excuses, sorrie ah.

den cher and bf played silent hill.. haha this time finally nt as scary, jus tat need to tink and nt alot of saved point. so when die u peng lo. RESTART!!!

and i bought my tea set over finally of exposure to sumwhere besides my hse. i loved it. dun ask mi y so random. just like the presentation and taste of tea, i dun hate coffee too. jus nv buy, machine big. haha.. future home maybe?
aniway stupid mi bought a tray for the tea set in the end nv bring!!!
peng lo....

haha so i guess i haf a beri happy start for 2009 with the best of frenz =)

lastly, to end this entry, my new yr wishes.......

1) to make more frenz
2) to have more $
3) to travel more often

in case u wonder y more frenz, i dun haf alot of frenz as i grow up.. so tinkin maybe this yr can make more frenz, but yet, isnt as simple rite?

as for $, i wan more so i can go find lx when she is studying overseas and also for myself la to lead a better life.

i haf always wanted to travel around, so no doubt =) and todae knew another vegetarian too, same as mi love travelling and lead a lifesyle similar to mine. and to be exact, we are of the same religion jus diff in certain ways.
if onli we are gd frenz... haha ...but noeing sum1 besides mi lead a similar life like i do, i dun feel this lonely......

is like all of us noe, bonding happens when we meet up, and usually to eat. and sumtimes more often i hate it, secretly, i reali hate it.
but who can i blame? is my choice?
pple include or exclude mi i dun haf a choice too, onli my attitude about it makes a diff ba.
i always try to tink in their shoe, hw it will feel, but i am still mi,
cant help tinkin i am nt sum1 pple wanna hang out with. rather force myself to be a loner than to make myself look despo for company.

haiz. i am still loti,
unconfident, yet wanna be or tryin too hard to appear confident.

a veri meaningful song !!!!


Day after day I must face a world of strangers
Where I don't belong, I'm not that strong
It's nice to know that there's someone I can turn to
Who will always care, you're always there
When there's no getting over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you
So many times when the city seems to be without a friendly face
A lonely place
It's nice to know that you'll be there if I need you
And you'll always smile, it's all worthwhile
When there's no getting over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you
Touch me and I end up singing
Troubles seem to up and disappear
You touch me with the love you're bringing
I can't really lose when you're near
If all my friends have forgotten half their promises
They're not unkind, just hard to find
One look at you and I know that I could learn to live
Without the rest, I found the best
When there's no getting over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you
When there's no getting over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you
Without you

some photos for d & d. haha it was on 20 Dec,
courtroom theme. hee =)

my lucky draw prize, PS 3...haha