as we get older, we tend to forget things....

here are some of the reasons i tink we forget....

1) unimportant stuff
2) too impt, so side effect, will 4get if u noe wad i mean
3) somethings are just easily forgotten.....
4) Dun wish to remember

sumtimes i reali wonder hw impt i am?
certain things happen for a reason. everytime i am nt happie, i tink of a certain sum1, which i shud nt be tinkin about. everytime sumthing bad happen i wish i can gif up and move on. everytime i tell myself is nt impt. tat certain sum1, will always be better than the certain sum1.
everytime i end up, being in the same point. not moving....

easily forgotten, or am i just too easily to please?

i dun have confidence in myself animore. wadeva decision i make, seems in others eyes wrong, wadeva things i do, i gt judgement, maybe i am avoiding everything, so much so tat i cant take it. i feel like gifin up. i feel like dying...

GOD give me the strength to do the things i can,

i am just another easily forgotten person.
let this person, disappear from the surface of the earth.

hey shuxian, if u see this, contact mi or ah yee or cher ok. we kinda worried bout ya. i hope u haf found a place to settle down le, just havent found the internet.

is still weird nt to have u in spore, like i grow up noeing u, ah yee & cher.
even though we are nt as close, but i hope u will miss mi la. lol

aniway hope u can contact us soon la.

i check email everydae, wondering when urs will come, jus like when my kor go work tat time for 3 mths. haha. at least he will email mi quite often, and gt send mi photos, so shuxian u better email us soon ok.

and i already wish u will be back soon....
with alot of presents.

and... a personal note to ah yee, go to taiwan mus buy mi things. lol. a bit also can. to show u miss mi. Wahahahaha....

i reali envy heartless pple. sumting i can nv be.
no matter for wad reason, they can be heartless, i always find it in my heart, maybe i am silly.

but i read a person tat i am not close with, but saw hw jus hw heart broken he was.
and tat brk my heart. yes i am too soft hearted.

or maybe i understand it too much, losing ur loved ones.

my gd frenz, shuxian will be flyin overseas to study soon.
her courage has always been sumthing i envy and proud of her.
she has worked hard for this, i give her my best wishes.
life has been hard on her, jus another ger, i hope life over there will be suitable for her. is a far far way there, so i cant promise i can be there for u when i need u, but bear in mind our friendship, so mani things we done together, so many memories,
tat will sumhow keep u going?
and we all noe, deep down, tat this is the best path for u.
tat even if u plan to work there in future, we will gif our best wishes again and hopefully fly there to congrats u, be it ur grad or jus to see u.
i find it hard, for u are sum1 i seems to noe all my life.
at least it is for the best.

when most pple are concerned hw well u do in ur life,
sum pple are concerned about jus u,
these pple are ur frenz.

i hope shuxian will meet more such pple there, and always be urself.
too much tots to sae, but i guess i will leave it for her. jus for her....

i reali do feel old even though i am yet to become 21.
is like when most pple now like to eat in their fav restaurant, i prefer my hawker centre food, cheap and nice. they are wad i grow up with.
is like new things still bring excitement to mi la. but is the xin xian gan tat attracts, old things is comfort.

when most pple dun play friendster, facebook (pet society)etc, i still am addicted to it. like u can better understand y sumtimes my parents still go bedok to buy food etc when is quite a dist, is cheaper yes, also familiar and friendly to mi la.
i miss tat place.

now i get disapproval chops from the things i do, i wonder sumtimes if going against it is wad i wan? or jus to prove them wrong? is jus mi to haf feelins for things i once loved. things and pple i once cared about. i noe there are certain pple tat i cant bother with, pple like my ex. by then, is a diff case.
i dun wan to stop tokin for fear of disapproval,
but sumtimes i wish i can just stop doing things tat pple who care will nt understand. but is mi, i dun understand y cant? i noe is for my own gd. but still, will i have regrets nt leading my life the way i wan? or will i regret nt listening? which is worse? haiz...

and yes, i feel old, is like expectations are getting more and more with life. pple are changing maybe slowing to wad i dunno. i am also slowing changing....

Dear frenz

Please look for me regarding computer svcs.

The shop is located near Redhill MRT.Since I am helping him there, can always contact mi =)

we will be doin printin svcs soon, and open daily.

Call mi for any enquires lo =P

and i still miss my hokkaido. lol.
ah yee going taipei soon le. haha. i cant go le. pai sey coz of the hokkaido trip cant afford le.

den joy also sae wan go hk and taiwan, quite cheap, but still i cant go le.
maybe next time lo.... i will go taiwan de, once i haf the $, coz there is like wad we always see on tv and heard bout it so much.

meanwhile if ask mi go vacation, erm banngkok? or msia lo.. lol

a beri nice hokkaido trip.
everydae change hotel, coz is big there save travelling time.
den tried hot spring for the 1st time,
play with snow,
seat airplane.

day 1 beri tired, coz the flight is 11pm plus, reach narita airport about 6am already den change to domestic flight reach about 8am, den start tour le.
but fun la.. cold, everydae like smoking coz i blow air out. lol
den there the nite beri early, 4pm dark already lo.

reali is eat slp shit. haha good life la for the 6 days.
den i love their 7 11, is like they sell suishi, bento sets and their cup noodles, beri yummy, their potato taste diff. everything also nicer la.

even the sun feel nice there, is like a good experience...

den coz cold, my tour guide suan me say i like ba zhang, haha cannot recognise mi. lol, but fun lo.. haha

i bought their famous chocolate, is more expensive than wine ok. please get it from mi b4 it is all gone. i try to buy back stuff but expensive la.

i love their lifestyle, is like when they slp they wear these beri nice pyjamas as in the photo u see... haha i bought kimono too came with the clogs, so ah yee we go out parade sumdae together ok. hee but mus help mi with the tieing la.

was reali happy, like i always wanted to travel now i more want to travel. let mi see the world besides mi and myself nt tat i dun like my world.

i begin to see and appreciate our sun. is like over here, yes is too sunny, but there is a diff u see, is like at winter u still see the sun, but u dun feel it.
in a way we are lucky, to feel and see the sun, the warmth.
in winter, u onli appreciate there is light lo.

but yet again, snow isnt bad too, is actually bad la, coz too cold so rain become snow, yet it gif a beri nice view and also goes to show hw pple can make use of the snow playing snow ball, make snow man, snow mobile etc. is like wad is bad may nt be gd, wad is gd may nt be bad. the world now, as my frenz sae, isnt about black or white but grey too.

i noe i shud appreciate my life this way too, be it snow or sun....
i noe i am nt perfect, pls understand i am onli loti, nt a rock.
i do wad i am comfortable with. best with my life. maybe wad i wan isnt wad u tink is gd for mi. u dun haf to accept wad i do, but pls dun accuse mi.

i jus wan to be happy.