if there is a point system in this world..

then there should be a few kinds.

for frenz, it should come as a full 100pts, den slowly depending on each other and add or substract points.

for lovers, it should come as 0, slowly adding points.

hmmm aniway sum1 ask mi to tok about happie things...

so here i go...

1)todae reali beri happie, coz 1 of my frenz called mi to chat. and yes is a beri rare frenz, sum1 tat kinda lose contact with le. and recently feeling down, so small small things reali can make mi happie.

2)and happie tat ah yee bought a hard disk from mi ( technically is fr JW la ) but, she can always find other pple. my rate nt exactly the cheapest ard, but cheapest i can gif her lo...

i guess tat is it for now. will blog more about happie stuff, maybe tat will keep mi happie too. loti cheer up ba. sad sad also no use. nth will change de...

may u find a rainbow in ur heart.

你羡慕她的美貌
像鱼羡慕鸟飞得够高
鸟却永远不了解海的奇妙

你羡慕她的情调
像沙羡慕石的牢靠
石却享受不了风自由的怀抱

牛奶替代不了面包
就想哭替代不了笑
其实是虚荣戒不掉
才会忽略每个人不同的好

完美是一个目标
有谁能够全部做到
可知道谁都有自己
不一样的心事烦恼

这世界谁来决定
谁比谁好谁更荣耀
说到底自信最重要
只有自己才能让
自己微笑

i love this song. express hw i feel. noe this song from ICE Angel blog.
is like reali hw i feel now.

牛奶替代不了面包( MI )
就想哭替代不了笑

i find tat i like the things quite funni.
every1 wanna be liked, i wanna be liked too, jus tat i refuse to change to wad pple like. yes in other words, it meant tat u haf to be wad most pple wan, most pple like, most pple do...
i jus wanna be myself. like the things tat i like. others may or maynt like i dun reali care. i found myself and i dun wan to lose it again, i dun wan to end up being quiet and nt tokin becoz wadeva i sae no1 cares. but it seems like the easiest way is to be quiet, to nt tok wad i feel... the barrier in mi is growing.

i used to feel tat the world is bias. against mi, now it still is, just tat i learn to accept that nt every1 can accept mi as who i am. as long as sum pple do, i am glad. i dun need alot of frenz, i jus need them. the few tat noe mi, and yet once again i was proven wrong, wrong tat they will accept mi.

i am once again, alone.

but it is ok, as long as i still smile, everything will pass, coz such is life.
at least i dun lose myself in return.
i can be alone, at least as long as i am alone i dun haf to answer to ani1.

may there always be a rainbow in every1 heart =)

LAST time when i heard about pple drafting their blog entry and not publishing. i cant understand. now i do.

i did sumthing more stupid.tell mi if u do tat too. i type and publish, but delete it when it was 1 day old only.

BLOG entry delicated to a gd frenz, u will noe who u are...

i jus wanna sae wad is so wrong about being diff? y cant jus embrace the diff?
we are all diff. i used to hate myself. coz i haf a veri good frenz, she was always more outstanding den mi, more popular den mi, more frenz then i ever had in my entire lifetime, always beta than mi...

i wanted to be like her too. knowing tat i cant be like her, i wasnt happie, i kept to myself so much tat sumtimes i dun even tink ani1 noes i am ard. tat is y i love the show tat raine show now. as ah zai, in the drama show together, she is easily forgotten, becoz she is too ordinary.

like her, we know tat outstanding frenz, and yes they are nt perfect. tat is when i realise sum pple are born with it. and i am born with sumthing tat only belong to mine too. tat is when i noe the diff is sumthing i need to learn to embrace. becoz tat is her to be the shining 1, to be the perfect ger.

even in her life, at sum point of time she isnt shining, to mi she is jus taking a rest, taking a back seat in life. and when she is ready, no1 can stop her from shining. yet i qns for her who can understand "the her" tat is not shining. instead of tryin to understanding fr our point of view, i choose to let her be. nt becoz i dun care. but i believe she is tired. i am her frenz, even when i am not cute, nt popular, nt funni, nt happy, in other words when i am not at my best i am still her frenz. so she will still be mine... even if we are not as close, she is still a beri special frenz....

FOR EVERYONE:

we can dream, but dun make ur dreams sumthing tat will onli harm the pple ard u.
dun dream so much tat u forget the pple ard u.
they may nt be as big as ur dreams, but they do exist in life. in ur life.
care about the pple ard u more, b4 u lose urself in ur dreams.

i understand becoz i been thru. and all tat i haf said is in my point of view....

I was just wondering if any1 is interested in getting OPI nail polish.

it is reali nice, after using OPI really dun feel like using any other brand, if u noe wad i mean la. haha

and it has nice colours too. so let mi noe ok, hee

i watching 爱就宅一起 , very nice. i noe it is on tv showing now, but i no time to watch tv, so need to go youtube. haha.

raine in the show beri nice. the low key person, which always get forgotten, jus like sum1. haha, and she loves her comics. in her own world...

aniway i watching another show too since this 1 need to wait to be uploaded. brown sugar macchiato. nice also. haha united is strength.

go watch la. den tell mi if u like it. or if it reminds u of any school life. haha

will try to update some photos soon.

finally gt time to upload. lol actually is i forget to bring thumbdrive to shop to upload these photos. tat day, i tot onli ting coming. haha ting u successfully fooled mi. lol. but thanks for coming....

the pple who turned up...
ting and ah long
cher
meng zi
joy

it was a simple tea party for the shop opening. in case u are wondering wad shop, is junwei shop... doing printing and com svcs =)

and if u can see in the photo, we actually pluck out the flowers and hang them nicely on the stand again, but this time without all the grass ard it. lol

even though it was raining, but it didnt spoil our mood i even managed to get a small umbella to play with. lol

tat day, the food was ok. in fact left alot. his frenz bring to work, since is nite shift, usually they will eat de ..den the orange juice we continue drinking til the next day then finish.

it was a fun day, after tat went chalet, his sis bdae so went there to slack lo.. but was tired, onli there for awhile. haha
and tat gave mi an idea for my bdae, nt the chalet part but other. aniway i tinkin of opening a hotel room. lol if i had the budget la. see hw ba... now is not my bdae 1st aniway... but is my 21st so hmmmmmm a bit excited... too early i noe. lol

p.s ah yee, if u had came i guess u will be in lolita, the shining star for the day, too bad.. lol!!

this is a big word. not only is it make up of alot of letters, it is also nt easy to fully comprehend.

is like we expect pple to understand us. but hw do we go about making pple understand us? i noe i am selfish in my way of life. i seek for understanding pple, yet when they dun understand, i dun explain, or shud i sae i can be bother to explain myself. so whose fault is this?

i guess is reali hard to be understanding.

aniway i am reading a new book, saw it on sales for 20% at popular as the best selling books, so i bought it. guess the title of the book....

confessions of a shopaholic.

haha i find it funni, like expect a shopaholic to buy coz it is ok sale... lol
i more of alocholic i guess, i need to go drinkin sum dae, ani1 interested?

hmmm this book is nice, i jus started but it reali speaks the heart of a shopaholic.
even though i am tryin beri hard to save money, sumtimes is also hard... lol
jus tat i found a beri strong and motivating reason to save, esp after my hokkaido trip... i wanna travel... all around if possible. but i haf sum top few countries, die also mus go... haha

1) aust ( find shuxian )
2) taiwan ( heard about it so much, wanna go see for myself )
3) Paris?

THE LIST WILL GO ON. HAHA but now i can only aim 1 at a time. aust!!!!

so i mus save =)

and this yr turning 21, of coz not onli mi la. so need to prepare present also...
they sae after 21 wun reali celebrate bdae. haha...
i haf ideas about my 21 bdae, but den tat will haf to wait since my bdae in sept, still a long way....

now is mar, shud start planning bdae for him le. hmmm his bdae in apr leh. ani suggestions ani1?