i'm bored. so here i am ranting again!!! lol

recently feel that i am a bad person. haiz... trying to be good ...
it isn't easy living on earth. i told ah yee on her blog,
life sucks just like a straw,
jus like some drinks, u maynot like them ...
but slowly, u will find tat some drinks are nice. and u found ur fav. just like life... it's not the best, but still worth living, and i guess we dun really have much of a choice unless u wish to disappoint ur parents?

i am missing BBQ, chalets, gatherings, steamboats, movies, swimming at 1 go.. so many things i wanna do. sept hangover? sept was so much fun i forget hw normally my life goes.. i am not like some pple who are beri bz, yet i am not exactly free, in his shop...

the good old days, is long gone yet i still think if i can go back in time, where life is simple. my library, my books, my frenz... just tat, no such things as popularity, make-up or even love... coz then we are all together without the element love, frenz were closer... more time to go out, more time to have fun. but yet again being adults change things, i am only ranting, haiz. life truely does sucks rite?

i like reading my books, they bring mi out of my imperfect world...
been going to the library beri often and love my passion fruit tea in the cafe, nt that i dun like the brownie but it's not warm... it used to be served warm then plus the cold ice-cream it's WOW ~ now, ok only. but i like the tea. and it seems like i am putting more sugar ( luckily brown ) then i used to.. maybe it's bcoz life's bitter that i want to be sweeten or bcoz the tea just becoming more bitter la. lol

the old days was not perfect, it still isnt now, u noe what makes the world of difference?
is the innocent us, that we can nv go back to, is the pure heart, the beauty inside ( not the beauty outside ).... is just the way things always seems happy then...

is the way i like to rmb it... i dun wan to forget my past. i dun wan to forget hw ugly i used to be, not that i am pretty now, but jus nt too bad too i guess. how much it hurts .. to be isolated, to be extra. to be just UGLY! but then, i made real frenz... and frenz for life. so it was the good thing out of it.

life is good when i feel real. UGLY but real. UGLY but fun, UGLY but happy...

not spending much, yet happy. that is the life i wan...

u nv noe what the pple closest to ur heart will do to u, they may do it without knowing, but still it will hurt isn't it?
and yet it is those hurt that makes us stronger, my all time fav quote fr cher, when the going gets tough, the tough gets going?
it's so true. is like wadeva bad comes out way is to make us stronger. wadeva good comes our way is to make us happy, make us feel tat life is worth living, at least at the moment, den rmb it... and "rmb" them when u are down...................