there are so many things i want to do...

1) go swimming
2) go fly kite ( as today i saw more than 20kites flying outside my house, damn nice lo... sudden urge to fly kite )
3) watch the lightning thief, 14blades, alice in wonderland and another show dunno what name but got chen long!
4) go library NUA ( planning on 5feb already =)

finally i got things to do...

they say, desperate calls for desperate measures...

maybe i am not desperate enuff for a job.. should be more desperate to get 1 and then once i get 1 i can do the following with my pay!! of coz not 1 mth pay then spend everything la... slowly slowly...haha

1) do something to my hair
2) get a better earpiece
3) get cruel temptation dvd for my MUM!!
4) IPOD TOUCH or IPOD also can!!!
5) get a MOUSE for my netbook! thinking if i should get wireless?
5) COACH wrislet?
6) a new watch!!!

& so the list goes on, i guess it's my motivation to work ~
5) external hard disk!!

sometimes, i choose not to comment bcoz i dun wan to care
sometimes, is simply bcoz i am in no position to say anything,
sometimes, is bcoz silence is my way of encouraging u to be urself...

after all this life that we all lead, all our actions we only have to answer to 1 person, ourself...

sometimes, i don't feel like talking, i just want to listen. really listen..

i don't know what to do next...
day after day pass by and i am still here...
life isn't fair.
yet what is ever fair?

if 1 day i lose my memory of certain things, will i be happier?

laugh and the world laughs with u ~

the wait to get a job is killing me.
when i shud be busy like every1 else, but yet i am not.
when i shud be doing something like every1 else, i am not...
instead i am wasting my life away.
as much as my life is not worth much, i want to do something.
please stop the wait.

i want to make myself happy every chance i get.
but from what i see now,
is still going to be a long long way...

as much as i like to fly kite, i dun like being fly kite at. haha broken eng. but i guess i cant change anithing.
life goes on, no matter wad.
what am i? but just a faceless passerby. ( rmb some famous quote )...
i shud work hard at being busy. at hafing a life.
then dun blame me.
bcoz only then i will feel like i am living a life i should live.
tat i really am living a life...
life is more real when i am busy...

night after night,
i tell myself,
to let it go...

i hope to find a job soon ~
please! being so free for so long kinda bothers me...
the fact that every1 else is so bz. tat is life...
like when i was bz too, life goes on, now too free, life still goes on,
i cant expect others to change bcoz of me. i can only make myself bz.

job ah job, please come to me ~ i been veri good and going to interview ~
so pls come to me. CNY is coming, so may the luck be with me...

my mum came back today and brought back some home-made sushi for me that look real good. but doesnt taste good. so i say i make 1 nicer, and then she want me to cook for her =) so i went with my dad to get the food =)

we went to my all time fav DAISO to get some make sushi stuff like the roll, the mould, the seaweed, measuring cup and the seasoning... haha i get some extra stuff too =) then we went to NTUC to get more seaweed ( in the end NTUC 1 nicer ) , RICE and rice vinegar... we also went to another market to get more eggs, cucumber, vegetarian prawn & ham ...

the sushi i think was a success =) at least my parents and my big brother like it =) and mum invited my aunt over, luckily it was successful if not paiseh sia.. then 2nd brother haven come home yet.. so dunno he like anot. hee =)

and this flirting point is what i saw outside singapore museum. a place allocated for pple to flirt only... museum are off limits =P

I had wonderful time with joy & cher at VIVO City. we went to the chocolate bar that sell very nice hot chocolate =)
as u can see from the photo u can actually see the mashmellows in hot choco. inmagine them together =) perfect ok. haha and this mug is call the hug mug, meaning u have to use your hands to hug the mug and then drink it =)
i had a wonderful time there...
for more photos pls go to my facebook. lol..
after that we went to the roof top to slack and talk and again we saw alot of stars. the 3 stars in a row ~ and JOY rmb to check if there is star gazing night organised in FEB, just thinking abt that night makes me happy =)

as u all know, VIVO have a very big DAISO... so we went there to shop and i finally bought soba & thick udon home to cook and it was my lunch today. lx, u know WARAKU have this dish call AI MORI? my creation was highly inspired by that, it was what i always order when i went there =) except the veg which was prepared by mum i did the rest for my lunch today. hee.... very full now. in fact i cook another serving for her to try =) by then i dunno if it will taste nice, but since it's by far the 1st timem i cook for her, hope she will like it =)

with all these happy things, i have 1 sad thing!!!
my MP3 offically die on me already! i was without it the whole day and really dun feel good at all... luckily at this time my brother came back from taiwan so i asked him abt it, he say maybe can repair, i certainly do hope so. dun wan to spend on mp3 when i can use the $ for CNY clothes... since he is not home yet i can expect to only gt my mp3 next week... if all goes well i mean. argh who gt extra mp3?

the hairband that i love but cant bring myself to buy it.
but then i wear it 1 whole day during work =) so yeah i am a happie ger. happy while working makes everything so much more fun u noe!!
*thx huifang for introducing the job... *


i saw couples coming in together, and 1 particular 1 caught my attention...
the guy was injured and with clutches, but of coz still can walk la. but at this stage shopping with gf leh!! tell me how is tat even possible? haiz. y is these kind of guy not with me?

and another few scenes of cute mother and daughter interaction time... reminds me hw sweet my parents were when they ate brkfast with me today since they usually go out to have brkfast and grocery shopping earlier, they waited for me today as i told them i have a 1 day work at tampines mall!!! hee =) i know and appreciate dad driving me there.. and realise my parents knew alot of pple from religion, maybe another reason y they stay buddhists... coz everywhere they went they knew pple... sumhw i like tat too, just sometimes and this was 1 of those times...

*mum and dad thanks =) i really am glad that u guys are my parents i just nv bring myself to sae it out loud. coz no matter what i was, u guys accepted me, i wasnt a smart ger i was just lucky to pass PSLE and olevel... tat is y i was glad and proud when kor kor gt into poly eventually UNI now, at least some1 in our family make it in studies. sometimes i was angry with myself, stress abt life so i may not be the best daughter, i will try to change just give me more time. or be more understanding... i dun mean what i say....*
i know they will nv see this, but is ok coz i noe i will find it hard to sae this to them too. but at least i wrote it here...

and i had a great frenz aka ah piao ~ aka ah yee ~ who reply to my stupid sms abt the hairband.. the zipper ribbon hairband ~ i ask if it was worth buying, i tot she will find it stupid that i asked her so randomly. but i was glad she reply fast, coz my phone going to die soon le. maybe she did find it stupid but still bother to reply... thx ah piao ~ i will go shopping with u soon too!!! hee coz i really wanna get a hairband in ZARA or forever 21 before i get the 1 in the photo and regret!!!

not forgetting JOY!!!
this may not be the best times, but believe me there will be even better times coming up.... SORRIE SORRIE SORRRIEEE!!! that my phone was on low batt and die on me today! like cher sae whenever i was needed, i kinda always didnt make it. but i will make it up to u tml =) we will have lots of time tml ok.. hee....
joy sometimes i wonder y i always sae sad things to u. now i wish i was a better frenz. talk abt happy things too =) in fact maybe to most of my frenz these days i had not been happier... i will try my best to be a better frenz a better person. remind me these when i am not a better friend to u all, threaten me... haha i have STM sumtimes so i decided to write this here!!! PROVE to myself!!! haha


haha funny how this post became sumthing like thanks giving post... haha =)

i am sick.. having sore throat & flu... slowing coughing also.
and realise that some friends also having flu too...
wonder y the flu virus hitting us? so take care ok....

maybe is bcoz i am sick, or maybe is bcoz i am home, or maybe i am just finding it hard to get a job... finding it hard to let go of some things again...
i did everything i could, i threw away things i should, i give away things i dun need, i keep things away, yet the only thing i cant throw, give nor keep away is my heart...

maybe i am just too bored, boredness do weird things to pple rite?

and with my mum nagging at me, i find it hard to stay home sometimes...

茶倒七分满，人情留三分

bcoz of this sentence mentioned... haha there were some funny moments:

there were times my cup was only half filled, haha i have alot of friends!!!
while there was 1 time the cup was nearly full... too much tea la... so must pour nicely to have many frens!!!

honestly, tea make me happy, bcoz is destress & detox for some... sometimes i have diffculty sleeping... and i want to slim down!!! haha!!!
as for coffee i also like them, just that i don't know exactly how to appreciate them la.. maybe next time ~

so coffee, tea or me? the answer we got today is TEA!! coz we went chinatown which was nearby to drink KOI bubble tea! i got my milk tea with 25% sugar... and i did not get a number as there is something wrong with the machine. so when i ask if i have the number, the staff said we will rmb ur order... i was like ok great =). but this just brings more disappointment for they eventually forgot my order!!! i went to ask them... and got it la not that i have to wait for long, just that when i tot that was great service, i was proven wrong... KOI chinatown, too bz? haiz...
but the milk tea was great =) yum yum....

I have this mixed feelings towards this actress not to be named...
I have always liked the way she act when she 1st came out...
and slowly whenever there is her, i will look at her show like how her fan will...
every time, i feel impressed that she can act and feel natural to me.

yet, slowly... i begin to feel that there is something different about the way she act. or maybe acting slowly begin to become something no more than just pretending what the script required. not that i have the ability nor skills to comment. i jus kinda disappointed that she change... yes she still tried many different roles, maybe just didnt have the WOW effect on me, slowly the WOW effect i have is on another actress.. i still like her, for it isnt easy to be an actress, to be able to act thru so many roles... just like life, sometimes we want to live, we have to live so we lose ourself in the process of survival, envt and all... just a pity she lose the "natural" touch... and the other actress, i hope will not lose the "natural" touch to it. isnt easy afterall to have that in u...

she still act in shows and all, just that i no longer feel her acting is natural anymore, just another actress... lost in their world... yet i will never really know them, just watch them on the square TV...

yeah it's the new yr of 2010!
I had a pleasant surprise on 31Dec2009 =)
LX came back and was waiting for us ( me & Cher ) at the hong kong cafe at bugis where we suppose to have dinner with ah yee & ying ying...
no wonder ah yee say that day she can only meet us for dinner. she was bz planning another surprise... she had to go to buy the cake alone for none of us should know that lx is coming back. no wonder ah yee weird weird de. haha i sort of thought it will be like tat but didnt really give it much tot. it just goes to show how well ah yee can keep secrets? haha but bcox of this surprise, i had a great countdown with them =) we saw the fireworks too, yes at bugis iluma! there is this rooftop that has nice view & carpet grass. but we were blocked by 2 buildings la, luckily we still see fireworks and didnt have to squeeze through the crowd.

so 2010 is here finally!! we talk til about 1am plus and took mrt home. luckily there is still LRT back... and we arranged to meet up on the 1st day of 2010 for dinner together, to be specific home-cooked dinner!!
a great dinner to start the yr with, most dishes were infused with my fav... alcohol!!! hee =)

starters- salmon with biscuits...for me, they did salad with thousand island sauce, alittle but of pepper & salt...

Main course: Vegetarian Pasta with Vodka ( didnt taste much difference... )
so we tried, Vegetarian Pasta with Tiger BEER! for once, tiger beer tasted nicer than VODKA!!!

Side Dishes: Chicken with mushroom in lots of TIGER BEER!!
Mushrooms with lots of pepper & salt...

Desert: Ice-cream with Bailey and cake =)

my 1st time trying so many dishes with alcohol!!!
then we had lots of cocktails....
as a result, the following happened:

loti: became a bit drunk, tired but luckily still able to wash plates, didn't drop dead at cher house. pronounce Lemon as Li-Mon


Cher: dunno what she talking about...haha..

Ying: tired & sleepy & while we chatted she went out of topic.. haha

Lx: she whole face red red! bully sundae (cher's dog)...

Ah Yee: extremely quiet, like anytime will cry.

haha it was still fun, trying all the creations of cher, and 1 of lx "medicine" & we also anyhow mixed in the end... maybe that is y we gt abit drunk. haha...
i am so looking forward to another gathering again while lx is still in spore!!!
lots of photos were taken and uploaded in facebook, take a look urself ...

i hope i can find my rose ring, hope is just sumwhere at cher house. kinda really like it...

after all this, 2nd Jan is NUA at home, slacking at home day =)