in most stories, dramas that i read or see, they always always have a happy endings... not that i prefer sad endings, coz they make u feel sad, like how life isnt sad enuff.. so no matter how the story starts, they always still do end up with a happy ending, but we all know life isnt like this, life may nt always be a happy ending... i know my life is already quite blessed.. i do count my blessings for having nice fren and family ard, but there are days i also think of the pple i lost thru time... i cant help but think if i will ever have a happy ending to myself and nt see it happening ard me. or maybe i just am not doing enuff to deserve what i wan. i use lazy as an excuse to change but truth be told i am jus afraid my efforts wont pay off at the end and end up losing more. i dont gamble coz i know i cant afford to lose. i dont play games coz i only like to win. thats me, i dont want to be a loser in life too so maybe i dont enjoy life. i dont know. we hope we pray.. yet all these dont help if it is all meant to be. we just keep praying and hoping... maybe if u wan it bad enuff, like the saying goes, when there is a will, there will be a way.. and there is also a joke, when there is a will, i wanna be in it.. lol.. i guess even if i dont end up with a happy ending i dont wan my story to end up being a sad story too. i hope my life will end just like what i am to others, a normal girl, leading a normal life. the end.